Forget forgiving him. Forgive yourself. Truly forgive yourself. Your will was overpowered. What you did was formally voluntary but in truth compelled. Congratulate yourself for escaping him. Don’t think of him as a person. Think of him as a plague from which you escaped. A plague can leave an aftermath to one who has suffered it. But, when the plague is over and you have survived-no matter what the damage-life goes on. Live your life. May it be a full one!