I feel bad for you. You do not see yourself as others see you-at least how guys see you. Years ago, when I first saw you in Medium, I checked you out on Instagram. I just looked again. My thoughts remained the same. You are a beautiful woman who does not know she is beautiful. There is a country song: “ She Don’t Know She’s Beautiful.” You embody it. Hopefully, since you say you are giving up dating, just live your life. If it happens, it happens. I think that, without putting pressure on yourself, it will happen quicker.