WOW! I have read much of your writing and I thought I understood not only from where you came but also why you thought as you did. I see now that I barely scratched the surface of your life. I am sure I speak for all of your followers when so tell you how happy we are that the teenaged you found a refuge. I only wish to state that there are many ways to be alienated from the mainstream. As a society, we are obliged to maximize and nourish those sources.