You describe a terrible set of injustices perpetrated by people I may not know, but with whose type I am sadly all too familiar. My problem with this post is that it needs supplementation. If I understood it correctly, you and your mother lived in Europe but somehow you came to America. I take it your parents divorced at that time. You make it clear that your mother did not protect you from sexual abuse by your first step-father, and that she was also abusive. I am not sure I understand what prevented you from reuniting with your father and why he could not contact you. Perhaps I simply did not read closely enough or you give your audience too much credit for knowledge of your situation. In any event, what you communicated was that you had been done wrong but survived nonetheless. Congratulations!